the path of most resistance

I’ve been tobacco free for over 2 months now. I don’t drink alcohol and I’ve been off the anti-depressants for at least as long as I haven’t smoked. And now I’m going to get back on them. This is SO frustrating for me. I really had hoped to be able to function as a productive member of the human race without using artificial balances in my brain but apparently, I need to. My levels just won’t….level.
I’m concentrating on not resisting what I need.
So that’s that. But I’m not happy about it.