Sometimes I can’t catch my breath even though I’m breathing fine.
The panting starts in the back of my head then moves to my heart
and I feel it creeping down my arms and legs.Sometimes I can’t see even though my eyes are working.
They are open and I’m looking outwards but all I see is inside
and I feel it creeping down my neck and back.Sometimes I can’t make words even though my speech is great.
The words form in my head but don’t reach the outside air
and they lay stuck like dry bread in my throat.Sometimes I can’t feel anything even while I’m touching.
My fingers stroke and then grab and I know there should be sensations
but they die and get lost before they reach my heart.Sometimes I can’t hear you when I can still hear other things.
The sounds fly nearby my ears and I wait for them to penetrate
but the noises get whisked away and I miss the love you breathed to me.
Wishing all the best to Dooce.