Often, the right thing is the hardest thing. There is something in me that wants to yell to the teacher that things aren’t fair or that I really did do my homework and the dog really DID eat it. But when it boils down to it, if you want the best for everyone, especially your kids, what you want might not be the best choice. It might be a good, fine choice and you probably are right, but that doesn’t make it the best choice when everything is taken into consideration. And that sucks.
But it’s also best.
Who said life is hard? Oh ya, I think it was me.
And sometimes, what you decide to do can’t be classified as ‘good’ or ‘bad.’ It just is. And it will have consequences that are hard but that doesn’t mean it’s ‘wrong.’ It just means that I like the easier road. Not the hard one where you learn a lot about yourself and life. And it takes everything in me to keep thinking about the big picture. Sometimes I hate the freakin big picture.
Not knowing things is really hard for me. I want to plan out my life or at least the next 4 months. I don’t do well with the ‘let’s just wait and see how it goes.’ But I don’t really HAVE to know. I just want to know. Except what movie we’re going to this weekend. I really do have to know that.