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Let me set the scene for you. We’re sitting on the couch, my husband and I, my nose buried in his shoulder. I’m weeping, beside myself with a ball of grief and failure burning through my chest like fire, wiping snot on his arm, making noises that are approximations of words, but no one can …
Here’s some clouds from Southern Utah. You’re welcome. That place is incredibly beautiful. I mean: I joke with Joe that we should go live there and by “joke” I mean “semi-serious” and by “semi-serious” I mean how about in two years or so. Poor Joe. I think part of my joke-not-joking is that we had …
This week’s class is super close to my heart. With all the “getting-well” I’ve been doing these past three years, managing how my brain is responding to the changes I’m making has been sometimes challenging but mostly exciting. I’m really looking forward to this week’s group and going in more depth about the process I’ve …
You guys. I’m oh-so-close to being done with Heal Something Good, the book I’ve been working on for the past three years. This has been a labor of love. My last book, Not Otherwise Specified, was such a deep journey of mental discovery that I would never call it “Light” or “Nurturing.” I mean, the …
“But, what do you have? What are you?” Oh, right. This is the part where I’m supposed to list all the illnesses and diseases and disorders I’ve collected over my lifetime and use their proper medical terms. This is how we measure each other up, to find out where we fall in the Diagnosis Scale. …
We’ve heard many times that it’s the crazy ones that are creative and there are studies that may seem to prove such findings. A post came up a few months ago by Scott Barry Kaufman about the link between creativity and Mental Illness. He has a book out called Ungifted, which may tell you without …
I’ll be speaking on healing our bodies and minds holistically in Orem, Utah next week. I’m really excited to share what I’ve learned these past three years. When I started this journey, I had no idea how intricately our mind and bodies were connected and how healing our guts and changing our lifestyles could change …
Take me to the beach, I whispered, silky soft in his ear. He wrapped me in his warmth beneath the covers. I need to see the waves in every shade of green and blue and frothy white, I told his mind without uttering a sound. He padded down the hall, got his sandals, keys. We …
Today was a low day. A very low day. In another life, today would have been the day I decided things were too hard to bear and so bleak I’d never see the blue skies again. I would have left my OBGYN results appointment (from the same woman who raked me internally) knowing she wants …
Monday, May 9 PS 7/10 Sluggish. Headache. Ache all over. Sad lower back. 7:20am 2 boiled eggs, hot drink I feel like you feel when your period is going to start in a few days. 10:30 App with Dr. K for official 2nd opinion from rheumatologist. I like her take on things the best so …
Sunday, May 8th Happy Mother’s Day. PS 6/10 Lower back, arms ACHING bad, headache. Feel sluggish but mood is still good. 8am 2 boiled eggs, coffeechicorymilk 10am Meet M & M for breakfast at Mission Cafe. It’s Mother’s Day so Wheee I’ll have whatever I want. Blueberry pancakes, egg, potatoes, coffeemilk We decide to go …
Saturday, May 7th Joe went to OC. PS 4/11 Good morning. Feel positive and energetic 8am Boiled egg, coffeechicorymilk Called M. Meeting her in Kensignton for brunch. M says I look good. I feel good. I decide to splurge. 11am waffle butter syrup coffee milk We peruse the neighborhood for shelves and find some Little …